ohhhhhhhh my first liebster!

sweet Yanic from family, faith, food and faith has nominated me for a liebster.  i don’t even know what that means. but thank you Yanic!  this is another fun way to connect to folks in the blog world. the other is my more random blog game. (blog game) i have never done this liebster thing before!

ok…here are the rules (i cut and pasted from Yanic):

  • Write a post thanking the person that nominated you.
  • Answer the 11 questions this person gives you.
  • Write down 11 random facts about yourself.
  • Nominate 11 new blogs (with less than 1000 followers) you think deserve the attention. This is meant as a way for them to get known and hopefully get new readers!
  • Inform the blogger you’ve nominated them.
  • Give them 11 questions to answer.

Here are my answers to Yanic’s questions:

  1. What is your favorite thing about your favorite season? I love wearing a bikini and resting on the dock at my parents cottage with a good book.
  2. What is your favorite ingredient to cook with?  Oh this is hard… Only one?  Ok.  Chocolate.
  3. Besides your family and pets, what would be the one thing you would grab running out of your house if it was on fire?  Photographs and my computer (which has most of my photographs.)
  4. If you could take up any hobby/sport, what would it be?  Horse back riding:  western style!
  5. What song could you always listen to without fear of getting fed up with?  right now it’s this.  hello you beautiful thing by Jason Mraz.  i have a little crush on him.
  6. What was/is your favorite subject in school?  English.
  7. What other languages (besides English) do you speak?  French and Spanish.
  8. What does “heaven” mean to you?  That is very complicated!  But if I remove all the complicated bits it means peace.
  9. Beach or Mountains? (and why) Beach.  I grew up on Georgian Bay near very beautiful beaches and hanging out on the beach brings me so much childlike joy!
  10. Tea or Coffee? Tea.  Cedar tea.  or Chaga tea.  or Lavendar Catnip.  Mint.  from the forest or the garden.
  11. What is your biggest regret?  i know this must seem crazy.  but i don’t have one.

11 random facts about me

  1. i like walk bare feet and don’t mind that my feet are often “dirty”.
  2. i love being alone, but feel incredible sad and lost when my children leave.
  3. i want to write a novel.  (am writing a novel).
  4. did i mention jason mraz.  i almost sent him the most beautiful oils from living libations, but chickened out.  i think it’s healthy to have crushes on super stars.
  5. i eat wild things.
  6. raspberries are my favorite berry.
  7. being kind is super important to me.
  8. i really really really really dislike door to door energy sales people.  and it’s hard for me to slam the door in their face because being kind is important to me.  i’m learning.
  9. i love reading stories to my kids in bed.
  10. i don’t like pokey objects remotely close to my face.  (i call it an eye phobia)
  11. i am 40 and still boy crazy.

My nominees :

Myriam’s sweet chaotic silence

Karlotta’s Love 2 Type

Crazy Bag Lady’s Bulan

Yessie’s  It’s my life, my story & my thought

Kari’s Cooking with Toddlers

Inner Wonderings

Margo’s Wild Child PTBO

Dawn’s this was now

Katie’s Pig-like angel

Mike’s Fifty Conversations

Shannon’s poet in the playground

Here are my questions for you :

  1. Why do you write?
  2. What was the last super awesome book you read?
  3. What is your favorite vegetable?
  4. What is the kindest thing someone has done for you?
  5. What makes you sad?
  6. Where would you most like to travel?
  7. Do you consider yourself introverted or extroverted?
  8. If you had three wishes…..
  9. Your favorite song right now?
  10. Something important your mama taught you.
  11. Someone who inspires you and why.

there is no pressure to play along!  but if you feel like it please do.  check out the other blogs i posted.  that is what this is really about for me.  community blog building.  and sharing out words.

big big love

chantalle

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deep in water

P1000494it takes me a long time to dive into water.  or jump in.  or even walk in really.  especially in georgian baie. (and i’m talking the warm side of georgian baie.)  ask my children.  it drives them nuts!  i don’t know if i’ve always been this way.  i can’t remember.  but i do love water.  and i love swimming.   it just takes me a long long time to leave earth for water.  or maybe it’s more that it takes me a long time to sacrifice dry for wet!

i stand looking, feeling the sun against my skin, and hesitate.  i love the feeling of sun on my skin.  i have no problem resting quietly, for hours if anyone would let me, with the sun licking at me.  it doesn’t take me long to flick my towel out and lay down on the dock.  but do i really want to get wet?  really wet?  now?

now.

when i finally dive.  or jump.  it’s heaven!  and i ask myself what took me so long?  the water near honey harbour is so silky.  so so soft.  and my mom’s pool is pretty awesome too.  i guess it is just the way it is with me sometimes.  it takes me a long long to leave.  it takes me a long long to change.

P1000423but in the end.  i usually jump.

and i’m happy for it!  look at those blissed out eyes!

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garden love

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this is such an incredible time of year for me.  the days are full of warmth and light.  i can walk bare feet.  and my garden offers up delicious bounty.  right now the raspberries are ripening.  and this morning i ate a big bowl for breakfast.  i added fun furry blue borage flowers.  such a great combination!  and so much fun to eat blue.  (and i don’t mean dyed crap.)

i am also juicing up so much wonder from my yard.  wild and cultivated greens go into my morning juice these days.  nettle, plantain, wood sorrel, lambs’ quarters, orach, dandelion, parsley, cilantro, dill, lettuces, kale, sun flower sprouts, cukes and celery.  isn’t that a great list.? what powerful medicine!  you can find many of these greens just growing in the cracks.  leave room for them!  they’ll happily grow in your lawn.

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what fun awesomeness is growing in your garden these days?   what do you enjoy foraging?  the girls and i enjoy walking to the mulberry tree not far from our house.  so many people in the neighbourhood come and gather berries.  but there are seems to be enough handfuls for everyone.

happy summer feet to all of you near and far!  may your heart be full of colourful edible flowers!

love chantalle

 

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a little blog game i play sometimes…

sometimes i play this game.  a blog game.   it is the “random” way i find you.  it has been my way of stepping a little bit into this blog world.   maybe you play this game too?

it’s wild.  some of you have soooooooooooooooooooo many likes after your posts.  this used to make me jealous.  to be honest i started playing this game so more people would like my posts.  and it has started happening.  a bit.  there are a few people pushing the like button.

i thought i would play this game here.  so you could play along.  i start with one blog.  i read some posts.  and then i find the little pictures of the folks who have liked a particular post.  and i choose one at random.  sometimes the person has a blog.  sometimes they don’t.  if they have a blog i read some of their posts.  and again find the folks who liked it.  and choose a random picture.  if the person doesn’t have a blog.  i go back and find someone who does.  i do this until i get tired.  along the way i like posts.  adding my photo to the line.

so here goes.  i’m starting with someone who has liked my blog recently.

http://indulgewithoutbulge.wordpress.com/

the chocolate brownies look awesome.  awesome!  from bridgitte’s blog i find:

http://lizcooksinthekitchen.wordpress.com/

i am still checking out chocolate.  this time chocolate cake!  and then i find:

http://cookingwithoutlimits.wordpress.com/

and the first thing i see is a raw chocolate recipe.  this is crazy.  totally “random”.  the photos are gorgeous.  and then i find:

http://myfrenchheaven.com/

let’s see if he has anything about chocolate?  there must be.  but the first post i see is about farmer’s markets.  and the photos are beyond incredible.  i am really having fun now.  on to the next blog.  who else liked this?  jackie sowrey.  but i don’t see their blog.  so back i go to:

http://godguidesme.com/

i love chocolate and farmer’s markets (i just recently stopped having a booth at one here in guelph) and i love horses.  and what do i find on this blog.  horses.  too bad my girls are away.  they would love looking at these photos!  the girls and i are a bit obsessed with horses these days.  they take lessons.  and i’m looking for someone to teach my western riding in exchange for private yoga classes.  i will read them about the wild mustangs in nevada when they return tomorrow.  from here i find humanity777 but i don’t see a blog link.  so i go back…

http://leczenieludowe.wordpress.com/

i cannot read this language.  i’m not sure what language it is.  something about natural medicine.  can anyone translate for me?  from here i find:

http://waldfoto.wordpress.com/

woah.  super sensual photos of flowers.  just stunning.  and then i’ll do one or two more….sometimes i find it hard to stop!

http://autoconocimientointegral.com/

i can read a little spanish.  so this is fun.  and a challenge!

i wonder how to let people know i link to their blog?  any ideas?

i hope you enjoyed my game.  i hope it brings you some delight!

much love from guelph, ontario, canada!

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balls

my girls have been enjoying some of my raw food again lately.  i have been making almond butter chocolate balls and peanut butter chocolate balls.  ivy and ezra both loved the peanut butter ones.  but they can’t take any nuts to school so i thought i would try sunflower seed butter.  here is my recipe.

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yummy nut/seed butter balls

1 500ml jar of nut or seed butter

1 cup of raw cacao powder

1 cup of maple syrup (yep! but you can use less if you want)

2 tsp of super awesome cinnamom

tiny pinch of salt

stir.  roll into balls.  (which i find super satisfying) roll in hemp seeds and or coconut flakes.  eat!  i like to freeze some too.

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the girls prefer the peanut butter balls by far. like they WON’T be eating these ones.  so it seems i will be eating all the sunflower seed balls myself.  unless you come over and help me eat some.  and then there will be room in the freezer for more peanut butter balls (which i guess i should have made in the first place!)  screw the school lunches!

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and then she came

at supper tonight i was retelling the tale of how eleven years ago i went into labour on a wednesday.   a wednesday just like today.  ivy stopped me to tell the story herself.  i loved watching her tell ezra how i was teaching yoga and my water broke.  i laughed and reminded them that i thought i had peed my pants.  they laughed and ivy joked about how funny it would have been if i had gone to the bathroom and had her there.  still laughing i told her that that was one of my fears.  she asked (slightly incredulously) if babies are ever born on the toilet.  i said yes.  sometimes.  and i quietly remembered my old neighbour mary.  she shared many birth stories with me.   mary was in her late seventies or early eighties.  we would sit and have tea.  i loved our time together.  and i loved her stories.  they were detailed.  and interesting.  and sometimes, like her baby born in the toilet story, scary.  i remember her telling me that the doctor had plans for the weekend and gave her some medication so as not to go into labour or some such thing until the monday.  and one thing led to another.  and she found herself in the bathroom at home popping the baby out into the toilet.  i remember asking if the baby actually fell into the toilet water.  i think i asked this many times on many different days.  she didn’t seem to mind.  and she would always answer yes.  if mary were still alive today i would call her up and ask her again.  did the baby really fall into the toilet?  i am easily fooled.  so maybe she pulled a fast one on me.  but either way i became terrified that i too would have my baby in the toilet.  eleven years ago i was worried that my baby would come too fast and end up in the toilet water.  that is super funny to me now because i  really didn’t need to worry about that!  no baby in the toilet for me!

tonight i curled up with ivy before her sleep and quietly remembered being pregnant.  she made me a mama!  and that it is very big gift.  i think that making someone a mama is the wildest thing you can do to someone.  i am certain my mother would agree!

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all these days without you

when i was in university i would wander through new and used bookstores.  they filled me with awe, and hopelessness.  i would trail my eyes across the spines of books lining shelves; books stacked on floors, books propped in windows.  there were so fucking many.  so fucking many.  how could i add to that i wondered?  should i even try? 

DSC_0002before having children i spent lots of time reading novels.  i liked to line my own shelves with them.  i would make satisfying piles by my bed.  they were both comforting and distressing.  at university i studied english with a capital E.   i read so much.  and wrote about what i read.  but what i really wanted was to write a novel myself.

so before having children i braved the beginning of a novel.  i didn’t even know then that i would have children.  i spent years writing and researching.  i spent hours avoiding writing (maybe more like months!).  hours reading my own words aloud.  i spent days and days and days struggling and muscleing with words.  and then i stopped.  i got pregnant and stopped.  i piled the pages in boxes with lids.  i slid the boxes onto my shelf.  for years my words rested beside the words of my favorite authors.  somehow that was enough.  i made it be.

i will be forty in may.  most of the books i read these days are about horses; i read them aloud at night to my children.  i am fueling their fire, i know, but i don’t mind.  i am rather drawn to horses myself.  sometimes, just sometimes, i read just for me.  and when i do i am still equally overwhelmed and inspired.

i took the two small boxes filled with the beginnings of my manuscript and hid them under my desk.  they have been there for over a year now.  i don’t usually open them.  and only a few people have peeked inside.  i am not sure what will happen with this story.  for now i am not ready to begin it again.  maybe it is not ready for me.  i am not sure.

but something fresh is beginning.

DSC_0018i have been holding this dream and this fear of story writing for over 20 years.  i am choosing to breathe both into this dream and into the fear.  i have opened a new word document; and i am beginning again.

i haven’t written a blog post since november.  since my trip to the ocean.  since the winter took me into hibernation.   it is now nearing the end of march.  things are just hinting at thaw.  the feelings i often have in bookstores, the worry that there are too many stories and not enough room for me, explode when i go online.  there are so fucking many blogs, and articles, and videos, and facebook posts.  so much sharing.  so many wonderful things.  and so much nonsense.  sometimes in the midst of all these words i want to hide away.  sometimes i want everyone to simply shut the fuck up.

i suppose this is the balance i seek.  times of quiet.  and times of sharing.  the stories i tell myself and the stories i tell you.  maybe there are never enough stories?  maybe there is room for them all? 

and surely i need to spend more time with my new word document then on facebook!!!!

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